“I fucked up.”

I blinked. “I’m sorry?”

“That’s why I’m here. I fucked up and the guilt is eating at me. I mean, I know that I shouldn’t have taken Alana out of the house but-”

“But?”

He tapped his fingers against his knee before he shrugged. “But I wanted to do something besides stay holed up in the apartment and cower in fear. I should have went by myself but I knew if I went by myself she just would have followed.”

“Who are we talking about?”

“Alana.”

“Ahhh….”

Alana seems to be an important dynamic to this group.

“Yeah man. It’s just that-” Nolan scrubbed a hand over his face. “My brother is out there risking his life every fucking day and what am I doing? Nothing!”

“Aren’t you protecting the pack that your brother leaves behind?”

Nolan laughed bitterly. “Yeah, I’m protecting them by smoking the ganja. Being Mr. Stoney McStoner as Alana calls me. Jesus Christ! What the fuck am I doing with my life?”

“Nolan…”

“And Caine is never going to talk to me again. I almost got his mate killed. He won’t return my phone calls. He’s the fucking Alpha. He can have me booted out of the pack if he wants to.”

“Do you think he will?”

“Hell if I know. He’s pissed off enough. And I can’t blame him. I almost got his mate taken away. You don’t understand the dynamics of the pack. Without a mate, without pups we are nothing.”

“I don’t think that he’ll force you out of the pack. From what I know of Caine he can be a little hot headed but he’s almost always reasonable. Just give him some time Nolan.”

“That’s what Rho said. How much time should I give him? And damn if I don’t sound like a bitch.” He gave a little laugh before rubbing his forehead.

“Nolan?”

“Yeah?”

“I saw your brother a few weeks ago.” I hesitated before clearing my throat. “He had a message for you.”

“What was it?”

“He said to watch your back and to keep an eye on Caine.” Also not to do anything stupid but I think he has enough guilt eating at him.

“How’s Greg doing?”

“He seemed okay. A little frayed but alright. Nolan, things will look up.”

“The sun will come out tomorrow like fucking Annie said huh?”

I smiled. “Yes.”

I watched as he pushed up from the couch and heaved a sigh. “Thanks doc.”

“No problem Nolan. If you need to talk-”

“Yeah, Rho will probably be in touch with you. For Vamps they aren’t bad. Have you met Ulrich yet?” When I shook my head he grinned before heading out the door.

Nolan appears to have have a form of sibling rivalry. He doesn’t dislike his brother. He just wants to be out there doing something. Hopefully that something doesn’t lead to more trouble.

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